It took me a second to decide which section to post this article on. I couldn't decide if because it was about a city, it should be in my travel themed "Adventure" section or in my "Thoughts" because it is more my reflections on the city.
Ultimately, I chose "Thoughts" because Los Angeles wasn't an adventure. Los Angeles was home. I became Los Angeles. I was Los Angeles. I still am Los Angeles. I abruptly left Los Angeles without much reason other than acting upon a whirlwind feeling. Moving to Nashville was just a surprise to me as it was to you. I hadn't planned to leave Los Angeles at all. The thought had never even entered my mind. I didn't explain much about leaving either, and to be honest, I don't like having to validate why Nashville is better than Los Angeles or why'd I'd ever leave such an amazing place. After leaving for 6 months now I know why in a sense, I had to move. The lessons I got from moving were the lessons I needed and am still learning.
The reality is, I conquered LA. I could see what my future was going to be and how ultimately being older in LA wasn't something I was interested in. I went through a rapid quick growth spurt in LA but it all came kinda so natural, that when I flashed forward and saw the end life goals I had came to LA so eagerly to pursue actually being in reach, I realized creating a life in Los Angeles was never what I wanted.
With that, Los Angeles captured my heart and transformed it into a beaming rainbow of fun and love... so this city deserves a proper farewell. Los Angeles, I love you, and all my friends there you are the reason why LA is the best city in the world.
To the people of Los Angeles, you give the world life. To the people of Los Angeles, you give the world a reason to live, seriously... can you imagine how much people would loose their shit if people in LA didn't work to create A Game of Thrones? (Shout out to Jeffery Stallman for editing all the promo trailers....I see you doing yo thang) People live for concerts, people in LA are the reasons why these concerts happen. What people in LA create becomes popular culture. Los Angeles gives people fun. Los Angeles gives people freedom of expression. The vibration of LA networks throughout every state and country in the world the minute people turn on their TV or buy a concert ticket. Los Angeles is where culture is created. Culture starts in Los Angeles and is projected onto the rest of the world. The people who create this culture are Los Angeles.
The people of Los Angeles are fucking weirdos. They are so weird they are cool af. Their attitude is next seasons swag. The people that create LA culture come from all over the world to make their dream your entertainment, or you fashion statement or your favorite song. It’s hard, it’s competitive, you learn to watch your back and fend for yourself. You learn there is no excuse. You learn that lunch breaks are for people who aren’t as passionate as you. You learn working until 10 and coming in on weekends is why you will be driving a bentley down Rodeo drive while other people with actual college degrees won’t. Los Angeles was the only place my vibrational work ethic was not only matched but brought up another level. Los Angeles was the only place on the planet where other people were vibrating on my frequency. Los Angeles was the only place where I could take all my skills and sink or swim. I definitely swam.
There is an energy in Los Angeles. This type of grind til you die and party all night whirlwind of money,success and people who only wear black all hustling together down the 405. I always thought it was funny people have the misconception of Los Angeles being flashy and glamorous but the reality is it is punk rock, goth and ironic hippies who make a living doing things like public relations for DJs. I've never met a more out of shape/ unhealthy person, then someone who is beyond amazing at their job in LA. Its a bunch of old British people smoking cigarettes and socially awkward film nerds with glasses slaving away at computer screens for seriously days.
The thing about Los Angeles is everyone moves with this big dream, and puts in the free hours as interns and assistants until 5 years down the road the slavery equals your Kardashian lifestyle. I moved to Los Angeles to pursue “the industry”,specifically, I wanted to run the music industry. I consider myself successful in that plan. I started out interning, but your so naive its a blast. One time I got super mad my boss made me drive down Sunset Blvd during rush hour to pick up his Coachella VIP tickets from a major music manager and was crying while a celebrity tour bus drove by full of foreigners and people from Ohio and I debated yelling, "THIS IS THE REAL LA, UNPAID INTERNS DOING BITCH WORK!!!" like that would have been a little extra but seriously it is the reality.
You can tell who’s gonna make it in the industry or not, some people are just dumb and got brainwashed by celeb magazines while growing up in Illinois, it's pretty quick to tell they are just gonna float around til their parents cut them off. Then there’s the select few who understand the 24 hour cycle of work, work, work, network, personal brand, network, event, concert, work, brunch, hike, work, answer emails, traffic, event, network, traffic, that is Los Angeles. I thrived in it. I loved it.
Los Angeles, you made me, you really fucking did. You made me who I am, you provided me with opportunities to explore all the ways I was cool, I stand out because you let me, I stand out because you highlighted my strengths. You challenged me to be a hard worker, you challenged me to earn respect for my work, you taught me to charge for my work, you taught me my self worth and time is worth material value, you taught me my intellectual property could influence thousands, you taught me the worth of my intellectual property, you challenged me to step it up a notch in my confidence. You taught me to be firm and stand for what I believe in. You taught me life experience was the best teacher.
I thrived in LA. I put in as much as LA was willing to give out, and trust me it gave out. The more I was myself, the more friends I had. The more I was myself, the more events I had to attend. The problem for me in LA was the events and partying were free, they both came with the lifestyle of my job. That's another thing about LA, you get paid in lifestyle, you get paid in cool experiences. The more I loved music, the more music came into my life. The more I loved music, the more cool people came into my life. The more I loved music, the more work opportunities came into my life.
THERE IS DOPE ASS SHIT TO DO IN LA. I’m not talking a celebrity tour of Hollywood Blvd. The side of LA you need to see is the side shown by insider. Any night of the week there is concerts, shows, premieres, launches, work dinners, and events. The more you socialize the more successful you are. When you go out in LA you go to like 4 different places. First dinner, then drinks, then the club, then the second club, then the after party, then to drunk meal, then home, then to work. This cycle can take you anywhere from a mansion in the hollywood hills, bottle service at a nightclub, korean bbq, hookah bar, the beach, thai food, hollywood, downtown, the westside, and god forbid the valley. Los Angeles fueled my inner critter, my inner nocturnal party fairy.
This is where my soul hit a wall. Ultimately I saw what would be my life if I continued in LA. I knew for me personally I needed to focus on other things and LA had too many fun and amazing distractions. The level my career was at and the social life required by LA was at was not going to allow me to also be in school full time. I never saw myself living in a dope apartment and feeling truly at home with myself. For that reason I had to leave.
LA you served your purpose like eternally. I'm sorry I left so quick, but I think out of anyone you'd understand that I'm just used to a hustle. I meet people or people see me and they know where I'm from. They ask me about you all the time and compliment you. Every time they ask me why I left you, my response of "Well I came to Nashville on vacation..." does not ever suffice. If anything it makes me seem more sketchy. I can't just explain to strangers in passing that the life you gave me was exactly what I needed to grow for a certain amount of time. I don't need to talk about you because people can see the amount of fun I had in LA radiating out my soul. Your energy is still with me. I still road rage and expect people to respond to my emails with in 30 minutes...that isn't going to change. I'm still at your level, I just needed other parts of myself to grow and catch up too. I hope you forgive me. I hope you miss me as much as I miss you. I don't think we can see each other for a little while longer, because as much as 6 months is a long time, I just feel like it would be too soon.
Los Angeles your beautiful. I'm thankful for all we created.
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