My Love Letter to Los Angeles ❤

Dear LA, 

It took me a second to decide which section to post this article on.  I couldn't decide if because it was about a city, it should be in my travel themed "Adventure" section or in my "Thoughts" because it is more my reflections on the city.  

Ultimately, I chose "Thoughts" because Los Angeles wasn't an adventure. Los Angeles was home. I became Los Angeles.  I was Los Angeles.  I still am Los Angeles.  I abruptly left Los Angeles without much reason other than acting upon a whirlwind feeling.  Moving to Nashville was just a surprise to me as it was to you. I hadn't planned to leave Los Angeles at all. The thought had never even entered my mind.  I didn't explain much about leaving either, and to be honest, I don't like having to validate why Nashville is better than Los Angeles or why'd I'd ever leave such an amazing place.  After leaving for 6 months now I know why in a sense, I had to move.  The lessons I got from moving were the lessons I needed and am still learning. 

The reality is, I conquered LA.  I could see what my future was going to be and how ultimately being older in LA wasn't something I was interested in.  I went through a rapid quick growth spurt in LA but it all came kinda so natural, that when I flashed forward and saw the end life goals I had came to LA so eagerly to pursue actually being in reach, I realized creating a life in Los Angeles was never what I wanted. 

With that, Los Angeles captured my heart and transformed it into a beaming rainbow of fun and love... so this city deserves a proper farewell.  Los Angeles, I love you, and all my friends there you are the reason why LA is the best city in the world.  

To the people of Los Angeles, you give the world life. To the people of Los Angeles, you give the world a reason to live, seriously... can you imagine how much people would loose their shit if people in LA didn't work to create A Game of Thrones?  (Shout out to Jeffery Stallman for editing all the promo trailers....I see you doing yo thang) People live for concerts, people in LA are the reasons why these concerts happen.  What people in LA create becomes popular culture.  Los Angeles gives people fun. Los Angeles gives people freedom of expression. The vibration of LA networks throughout every state and country in the world the minute people turn on their TV or buy a concert ticket.   Los Angeles is where culture is created. Culture starts in Los Angeles and is projected onto the rest of the world. The people who create this culture are Los Angeles.  

The people of Los Angeles are fucking weirdos.  They are so weird they are cool af. Their attitude is next seasons swag. The people that create LA culture come from all over the world to make their dream your entertainment, or you fashion statement or your favorite song. It’s hard, it’s competitive, you learn to watch your back and fend for yourself. You learn there is no excuse.  You learn that lunch breaks are for people who aren’t as passionate as you.  You learn working until 10 and coming in on weekends is why you will be driving a bentley down Rodeo drive while other people with actual college degrees won’t.  Los Angeles was the only place my vibrational work ethic was not only matched but brought up another level.  Los Angeles was the only place on the planet where other people were vibrating on my frequency.  Los Angeles was the only place where I could take all my skills and sink or swim.  I definitely swam.

There is an energy in Los Angeles.  This type of grind til you die and party all night whirlwind of money,success and people who only wear black all hustling together down the 405.  I always thought it was funny people have the misconception of Los Angeles being flashy and glamorous but the reality is it is punk rock, goth and ironic hippies who make a living doing things like public relations for DJs. I've never met a more out of shape/ unhealthy person, then someone who is beyond amazing at their job in LA.  Its a bunch of old British people smoking cigarettes and socially awkward film nerds with glasses slaving away at computer screens for seriously days. 

The thing about Los Angeles is everyone moves with this big dream, and puts in the free hours as interns and assistants until 5 years down the road the slavery equals your Kardashian lifestyle.  I moved to Los Angeles to pursue “the industry”,specifically,  I wanted to run the music industry.  I consider myself successful in that plan.  I started out interning, but your so naive its a blast.   One time I got super mad my boss made me drive down Sunset Blvd during rush hour to pick up his Coachella VIP tickets from a major music manager and was crying while a celebrity tour bus drove by full of foreigners and people from Ohio and I debated yelling, "THIS IS THE REAL LA, UNPAID INTERNS DOING BITCH WORK!!!" like that would have been a little extra but seriously it is the reality. 

2013 :: When I first moved to LA these were my essentials Essentials Part 1 :: Rave pass and blackberry.   When I first moved to LA I didn't have a phone with internet so I ended up learning the streets of LA by having to actually pay attention and running errands for bosses. If I was really lost I would call my ex and have him tell me directions over the phone. 

2013 :: When I first moved to LA these were my essentials

Essentials Part 1 :: Rave pass and blackberry.  

When I first moved to LA I didn't have a phone with internet so I ended up learning the streets of LA by having to actually pay attention and running errands for bosses. If I was really lost I would call my ex and have him tell me directions over the phone. 

2014 :: LA Essentials Part 2 :: Avicci Penguin flash drive disk for all my computer files and matching penguin weed pipe. Both small and stealthy for the club. 

2014 :: LA Essentials Part 2 :: Avicci Penguin flash drive disk for all my computer files and matching penguin weed pipe. Both small and stealthy for the club. 

You can tell who’s gonna make it in the industry or not, some people are just dumb and got brainwashed by celeb magazines while growing up in Illinois, it's pretty quick to tell they are just gonna float around til their parents cut them off.  Then there’s the select few who understand the 24 hour cycle of work, work, work, network, personal brand, network, event, concert, work, brunch, hike, work, answer emails, traffic, event, network, traffic, that is Los Angeles.  I thrived in it. I loved it. 

2013 :: Hollywood :: When I first moved to LA, I interned at world famous DJ Steve Aoki's record label for 8 months. We worked on music releases, events, music videos, marketing and social media.  

2013 :: Hollywood :: When I first moved to LA, I interned at world famous DJ Steve Aoki's record label for 8 months. We worked on music releases, events, music videos, marketing and social media.  

2013 :: Hollywood :: Lorne, the Vice President of Dim Mak Records was one of the first people to really challenge and believe in me in LA.  He is definitely one of the most interesting people I have ever met. He is a die hard U2 fan. 

2013 :: Hollywood :: Lorne, the Vice President of Dim Mak Records was one of the first people to really challenge and believe in me in LA.  He is definitely one of the most interesting people I have ever met. He is a die hard U2 fan. 

2013 :: Hollywood:: Very rare pic of Cubby Cramer djing after work at the Dim Mak office.  Cubby def conquered his hollywood dreams moving up from interning at Dim Mak to be the Creative Director for EDM at Redlight Management.  

2013 :: Hollywood:: Very rare pic of Cubby Cramer djing after work at the Dim Mak office.  Cubby def conquered his hollywood dreams moving up from interning at Dim Mak to be the Creative Director for EDM at Redlight Management.  

2013 :: Hollywood :: Normal things in the Dim Mak office. Also Adrien... my closest most ride or die friend the entire time I lived in LA.  We shared that desk together and like took off from there. Now Adrien owns his own management/record label and makes high quality music videos. 

2013 :: Hollywood :: Normal things in the Dim Mak office. Also Adrien... my closest most ride or die friend the entire time I lived in LA.  We shared that desk together and like took off from there. Now Adrien owns his own management/record label and makes high quality music videos. 

2014 :: Hollywood :: Chainsmokers #SELFIE was the first song I worked on at Dim Mak records to go platinum along with a viral Youtube video. Dim Mak was a really small DYI team so it was cool to see all the moving parts we created with the marketing and social media come together for a successful record. 

2014 :: Hollywood :: Chainsmokers #SELFIE was the first song I worked on at Dim Mak records to go platinum along with a viral Youtube video. Dim Mak was a really small DYI team so it was cool to see all the moving parts we created with the marketing and social media come together for a successful record. 

2014 :: West Hollywood :: My favorite place to intern was at Spin.  I fit in so well and was really able to like implement my prior skills and work on my own projects.  Things I worked on mattered and had effects in different cities and shows around the country. I got to go to shows all the time and made really good friends. 

2014 :: West Hollywood :: My favorite place to intern was at Spin.  I fit in so well and was really able to like implement my prior skills and work on my own projects.  Things I worked on mattered and had effects in different cities and shows around the country. I got to go to shows all the time and made really good friends. 

2014 :: West Hollywood :: Cota, the Boss's dog, would often keep me company at my desk and attack all the clients I would have to greet for meetings. 

2014 :: West Hollywood :: Cota, the Boss's dog, would often keep me company at my desk and attack all the clients I would have to greet for meetings. 

2014 :: West Hollywood :: Views from my office on the 15th floor of 9000 Sunset Blvd

2014 :: West Hollywood :: Views from my office on the 15th floor of 9000 Sunset Blvd

2014 :: West Hollywood :: When your office touches the clouds

2014 :: West Hollywood :: When your office touches the clouds

2014 :: Beverly Hills :: My first day at Live Nation Entertainment in the Digital Marketing department. 

2014 :: Beverly Hills :: My first day at Live Nation Entertainment in the Digital Marketing department. 

2015 ::The Towers Westwood :: At The Appointment Group office, hot curling my hair for the office holiday party while trying to find a hotel room for a VIP DJ during New Years Eve in Lake Tahoe  

2015 ::The Towers Westwood :: At The Appointment Group office, hot curling my hair for the office holiday party while trying to find a hotel room for a VIP DJ during New Years Eve in Lake Tahoe  

Los Angeles, you made me, you really fucking did.  You made me who I am, you provided me with opportunities to explore all the ways I was cool, I stand out because you let me, I stand out because you highlighted my strengths.  You challenged me to be a hard worker, you challenged me to earn respect for my work, you taught me to charge for my work, you taught me my self worth and time is worth material value, you taught me my intellectual property could influence thousands, you taught me the worth of my intellectual property, you challenged me to step it up a notch in my confidence. You taught me to be firm and stand for what I believe in. You taught me life experience was the best teacher. 

I thrived in LA.  I put in as much as LA was willing to give out, and trust me it gave out.  The more I was myself, the more friends I had.  The more I was myself, the more events I had to attend.  The problem for me in LA was the events and partying were free, they both came with the lifestyle of my job.  That's another thing about LA, you get paid in lifestyle, you get paid in cool experiences.  The more I loved music, the more music came into my life.  The more I loved music, the more cool people came into my life.  The more I loved music, the more work opportunities came into my life.

2015 :: Staples Center - DTLA :: Through work I got free VIP Clippers tickets and the seats came with a waiter, which was awesome because I was high AF and wearing stilettos.  

2015 :: Staples Center - DTLA :: Through work I got free VIP Clippers tickets and the seats came with a waiter, which was awesome because I was high AF and wearing stilettos.  

THERE IS DOPE ASS SHIT TO DO IN LA.  I’m not talking a celebrity tour of Hollywood Blvd.  The side of LA you need to see is the side shown by insider.  Any night of the week there is concerts, shows, premieres, launches, work dinners, and events.  The more you socialize the more successful you are.  When you go out in LA you go to like 4 different places.  First dinner, then drinks, then the club, then the second club, then the after party, then to drunk meal, then home, then to work.  This cycle can take you anywhere from a mansion in the hollywood hills, bottle service at a nightclub, korean bbq, hookah bar, the beach, thai food, hollywood, downtown, the westside, and god forbid the valley.  Los Angeles fueled my inner critter, my inner nocturnal party fairy.

2015 :: West Hollywood :: The Appointment Group holiday party was held at the 5 star boutique hotel, The Petit Ermitage.  The hotel is an Moroccan themed fine art adult play house in the middle of WeHo.  I smoked a blunt with a black santa on the roof top pool overlooking the Hollywood Hills.  I saw my first Salvador Dali painting in real life.  I discussed forskins and exchanged dick pics with the flamboyant German Millionare hotel owner.  I went into an elf house that sold lingerie.  I watched someone get a tattoo. I thought about getting a tattoo. I gave a speech that people adored and thanked me for.  Then I went to Blind Dragon for bottle service and partied with Justin Bieber. 

2015 :: West Hollywood :: The Appointment Group holiday party was held at the 5 star boutique hotel, The Petit Ermitage.  The hotel is an Moroccan themed fine art adult play house in the middle of WeHo.  I smoked a blunt with a black santa on the roof top pool overlooking the Hollywood Hills.  I saw my first Salvador Dali painting in real life.  I discussed forskins and exchanged dick pics with the flamboyant German Millionare hotel owner.  I went into an elf house that sold lingerie.  I watched someone get a tattoo. I thought about getting a tattoo. I gave a speech that people adored and thanked me for.  Then I went to Blind Dragon for bottle service and partied with Justin Bieber. 

2015 ::Hollywood :: Two of my favorite humans I met from work opportunities  in LA.  The amount of laughs and memories I can't remember is epically endless. LA is definitely one of the only cities that can handle how hard this group parties when the universe is fortunate to bring us together from opposite sides of the world. 

2015 ::Hollywood :: Two of my favorite humans I met from work opportunities  in LA.  The amount of laughs and memories I can't remember is epically endless. LA is definitely one of the only cities that can handle how hard this group parties when the universe is fortunate to bring us together from opposite sides of the world. 

2015 :: New Years :: Hollywood Hills with the Master G Mr. Paolo.  

2015 :: New Years :: Hollywood Hills with the Master G Mr. Paolo.  

2014 ::Playa Del Rey:: This is the first house I lived in LA. I had my own private studio around to the left.  This house was perfect because it was walking proximity to the beach and a 10 min drive to the airport.  

2014 ::Playa Del Rey:: This is the first house I lived in LA. I had my own private studio around to the left.  This house was perfect because it was walking proximity to the beach and a 10 min drive to the airport.  

2014 :: My first time to Venice with my pipe Phante and my bf acting like little goobers all over local bars. 

2014 :: My first time to Venice with my pipe Phante and my bf acting like little goobers all over local bars. 

2015 :: Long Beach :: More dirty hippie beach parties.  

2015 :: Long Beach :: More dirty hippie beach parties.  

2015 :: DTLA :: Roof top tanning at The Standard Hotel's pool.

2015 :: DTLA :: Roof top tanning at The Standard Hotel's pool.

2015 :: Hollywood :: Yvvone, the accountant at Spin Artist Agency, and I after work at one of my favorite Tuesday night parties Space Yacht.  You could only get into Space Yacht parties if you received an email from them and then also responded on a private link your RSVP.   And ya, I had worn that panda dress to work that day. 

2015 :: Hollywood :: Yvvone, the accountant at Spin Artist Agency, and I after work at one of my favorite Tuesday night parties Space Yacht.  You could only get into Space Yacht parties if you received an email from them and then also responded on a private link your RSVP.   And ya, I had worn that panda dress to work that day. 

2015 :: The Towers Westwood :: Coffee & Emails at The Appointment Group. 

2015 :: The Towers Westwood :: Coffee & Emails at The Appointment Group. 

2015 :: DTLA :: Underground Skrillex parties.  You know your cool in LA when your on a parties mailing list and get to find out the location, time and line up scrolling your inbox during lunch. 

2015 :: DTLA :: Underground Skrillex parties.  You know your cool in LA when your on a parties mailing list and get to find out the location, time and line up scrolling your inbox during lunch. 

2015 :: Montana Ave, Santa Monica :: LA allowed me to be healthy. There is far more healthy options to eat everywhere in LA.  I loved it.  Bee pollen, hell yes.  Dragon berries, hell yes.  Entire radishes. Hell yes. Extra kale. FUCK YES.  Smoothies were a lifestyle for me. 

2015 :: Montana Ave, Santa Monica :: LA allowed me to be healthy. There is far more healthy options to eat everywhere in LA.  I loved it.  Bee pollen, hell yes.  Dragon berries, hell yes.  Entire radishes. Hell yes. Extra kale. FUCK YES.  Smoothies were a lifestyle for me. 

2015 :: Hollywood :: Seriously like 9/10 I was out drinking it was out in Hollywood and it was at Cabo Cantina. 100% of the time it was patron in my cup and Abril by my side. 

2015 :: Hollywood :: Seriously like 9/10 I was out drinking it was out in Hollywood and it was at Cabo Cantina. 100% of the time it was patron in my cup and Abril by my side. 

2015 :: Dockweiler Beach :: When I moved to Playa Del Rey I found out there was all these secret underground raves happening on the beach.  I could walk to them from my house and just get weird as fuck. They were always on Sundays which made for this weird like why are you still tripping from the weekend convo on Mondays at work. Also one time one these parties got shut down at like 1am by a police helicopter LOL. 

2015 :: Dockweiler Beach :: When I moved to Playa Del Rey I found out there was all these secret underground raves happening on the beach.  I could walk to them from my house and just get weird as fuck. They were always on Sundays which made for this weird like why are you still tripping from the weekend convo on Mondays at work. Also one time one these parties got shut down at like 1am by a police helicopter LOL. 

2015 :: Venice Canals :: On a romantic day date smoking blunts

2015 :: Venice Canals :: On a romantic day date smoking blunts

2016 :: Venice Beach :: Every Sunday in Venice there is a drum circle.  Its been meeting there for decades.  You will not find out anything on the internet, its not officially scheduled in society, but its there, every single Sunday.  Its hard to miss from the Venice Skatepark and boardwalk.  It's the perfect place to just relax or grab a hula hoop if you feel up to it.  

2016 :: Venice Beach :: Every Sunday in Venice there is a drum circle.  Its been meeting there for decades.  You will not find out anything on the internet, its not officially scheduled in society, but its there, every single Sunday.  Its hard to miss from the Venice Skatepark and boardwalk.  It's the perfect place to just relax or grab a hula hoop if you feel up to it.  

2015 :: Hermosa Beach:: My 22nd birthday vibing out with my Team Smell Good homies 

2015 :: Hermosa Beach:: My 22nd birthday vibing out with my Team Smell Good homies 

2015 :: Paolo's house in the hills :: 360 degrees of vinyls, 9 turn tables and a lot of weed. 

2015 :: Paolo's house in the hills :: 360 degrees of vinyls, 9 turn tables and a lot of weed. 

2015 :: Venice Whole Foods :: My pink ombre hair matching my smoothie is LA as fuck

2015 :: Venice Whole Foods :: My pink ombre hair matching my smoothie is LA as fuck

2015 :: My Beverly Hills Apartment :: What most of my weekend mornings looked like 

2015 :: My Beverly Hills Apartment :: What most of my weekend mornings looked like 

standard office emails about battling over the office pandora station

standard office emails about battling over the office pandora station

This is where my soul hit a wall.  Ultimately I saw what would be my life if I continued in LA. I knew for me personally I needed to focus on other things and LA had too many fun and amazing distractions.  The level my career was at and the social life required by LA was at was not going to allow me to also be in school full time. I never saw myself living in a dope apartment and feeling truly at home with myself.   For that reason I had to leave.

LA you served your purpose like eternally. I'm sorry I left so quick, but I think out of anyone you'd understand that I'm just used to a hustle.   I meet people or people see me and they know where I'm from.  They ask me about you all the time and compliment you.  Every time they ask me why I left you, my response of "Well I came to Nashville on vacation..." does not ever suffice. If anything it makes me seem more sketchy. I can't just explain to strangers in passing that  the life you gave me was exactly what I needed to grow for a certain amount of time.   I don't need to talk about you because people can see the amount of fun I had in LA radiating out my soul.  Your energy is still with me.  I still road rage and expect people to respond to my emails with in 30 minutes...that isn't going to change.  I'm still at your level,  I just needed other parts of myself to grow and catch up too.  I hope you forgive me.  I hope you miss me as much as I miss you. I don't think we can see each other for a little while longer, because as much as 6 months is a long time, I just feel like it would be too soon. 

Los Angeles your beautiful. I'm thankful for all we created.  

Say Hi to all my friends for me

xoxo

-Natalie